Just waiting.....

I have been so encouraged over the past few days by the kind words that so many of you have shared with us.  It means more that I could express to hear that people are praying for us and are "in our corner".  


Several of you have said how excited you are to hear the next part of our story.  So I just wanted to give a quick update about our current status, which is ----- waiting -----.  We have not been picked by a birth mother and we do not have a baby yet.  Believe me, when that happens you will hear me shouting for joy and telling everyone!  


As of today we have had six birth mothers look at our profile book.  We are left with a lot of questions about why no one has picked us yet.  There is a huge battle in my mind and the devil is really good at twisting things and using them to attack me.  Each time a birth mother is going to look at our book we are filled with hope and anticipation.  Then when we are not picked we are let down and feel rejected.  It is terrible roller coaster of emotions and to be honest I am ready to get off this ride!


It was especially hard to hear that number five and six didn't pick us.  We learned about these birth mothers on the same day.  This is a pretty rare thing to have two birth mothers on the same day, so far we have been averaging one birth mother opportunity a month.  So when we got the news that neither of them had picked us, it was really discouraging.  (If you don't understand about how we hear about a birth mother, don't worry.  I plan on doing a post later on about how that all works.)


A sweet friend reminded me again to day to trust the Lord and his timing.  And our pastor has been reminding us for the past several weeks that, "when you can't trace His hand, trust His heart".  This verse has been such a comfort.  I don't understand why we have not been chosen yet, but God does.  I do understand and trust that He has a plan.  And for now that is what I will cling to.

Isaiah 55:8-9

New International Version

⁸ “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,” 
declares the Lord.
⁹ “As the heavens are higher than the earth, 
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.